That's all.

Sometimes, i really just feel fucked up.

My medication fucks with me.

I always am feeling like everyone dislikes me,

and i feel quite depressed from it,

it's really dumb.

But i need the medication for school.

So i can concentrate.

Get good marks = go to college = get a good job

That's the one math equation I'm very familiar with.

To my best friends who Do read this,

i need you all now,

more than ever to help me through these tough times.

I know i haven't been feeling good lately.

i'm caught up in my own personal problems.

If i act out stupidly, or be an asshole, or a douchebag.

Or even act like sad, or really different then how i was in the summer.

Just know, i'm not trying to act different.

I just Feel different.

I'm sorry already for the weird things i say and do.

I miss you a lot. i need you to know,

I'm sorry for all the things i'll ever put you through.

i love you. Just know that. You matter to me, a lot.

I just need to know from all of you that matter to me,

that i matter to you too.

That's all.