No Matter What

No matter what I'm doing,
where I'm going,
who I'm with publicly.

Just know that I'm thinking about you.
Or that i'm dreaming about you.
No matter what,
You're on my mind.

Never far from my heart,
always on my mind.

I could ask if you're tired.

because I know you've been running all day.
through my mind, anyways.

Even as I sit here right now,

I'm thinking, man i just wanna sit with her.

have coffee, watch movies,

take bus rides where we don't know where we're going.

All of those things are my favourite things to do.

Aside from the obvious cuddling, and hugging and kissing.

Every single moment, i'm going to cherish.

As if it were our last together.

This world is unpredictable,

Let's take advantage of what we have.

I love you. <3

Hasko's Eighteenth

Well

First off.... BOMBEST party i've been to in a long ass time.

I got really stoned, and really wasted. and basically.

i had an amazing time.

i seen sooo many familiar faces, and met a lot of new ones.

i got hit on. that fee;s good in general.

even the fact that i had to leave early and people are like:

MIKE WHY'D YOU LEAVE EARLY

that makes me feel good too.

the fact that i was wanted around haha.

Man, i discovered that certain people do certain things,

and i love that fact. a lot.

i loved seeing AJ, and i let him borrow my phone to call his new girlfriend. <3

HASKO mother fucker.... i'm sorry you got too wasted.

i hope your okay. basically i love you completely like a brother.

fuckin eh, man that shit was crazy.

Seeing soooo many awesome people at once, going pee ion the backyard. hiding from the police.

ALL OF IT was amazing.

legit.

like i'm serious right now.

i had one of the most unforgettable times, ever.

and there will be more to come. especially for our 19th birthdays.

fuck yeah... :D

I'M EXCITED

That's all.

Sometimes, i really just feel fucked up.

My medication fucks with me.

I always am feeling like everyone dislikes me,

and i feel quite depressed from it,

it's really dumb.

But i need the medication for school.

So i can concentrate.

Get good marks = go to college = get a good job

That's the one math equation I'm very familiar with.

To my best friends who Do read this,

i need you all now,

more than ever to help me through these tough times.

I know i haven't been feeling good lately.

i'm caught up in my own personal problems.

If i act out stupidly, or be an asshole, or a douchebag.

Or even act like sad, or really different then how i was in the summer.

Just know, i'm not trying to act different.

I just Feel different.

I'm sorry already for the weird things i say and do.

I miss you a lot. i need you to know,

I'm sorry for all the things i'll ever put you through.

i love you. Just know that. You matter to me, a lot.

I just need to know from all of you that matter to me,

that i matter to you too.

That's all.

Sometimes

Sometimes, i wish.

I was a different person.

A person who could know, grow and be different then the person i am today.

Like having a double life.

Sometimes i feel like i need to escape the man that stares back at me in the mirror.

Sometimes I thank God for the person i am, because I know i'm a great guy.

I have an amazing girlfriend, best of friends, a great family, etc.

Sometimes though... when shit gets tough i wish i could escape.

Just take off my "body suit", and get a new person suit or something.

For example, Donny Darko, his stupid man suit.

I WISH I could just get a different man suit.

With out the flaws i have now in my own.

Sitting here, sometimes I wish I had better things to do.

I mean i do, I have homework but FUCK HOMEWORK.

Sometimes, a person can dream.

I do.